Its been awhile

Yet again I have slacked big time on keeping up with this blog...nothing new there. Alot is going on in our life. We bought a house and we should be closing in the next couple days. It is in San Jacinto which is about 30 min from here. Not too far but far enought to start fresh. Its going to be an adjustment for all of us. The kids will go to a new school and make some new friends. Im sad that they will have to do that but life is about changing, nothing ever stays the same. They will be okay. I am looking forward to the change. A FRESH start!!! The house is nice, alot bigger than what we are renting right now and its cheaper!

There is only 4 1/2 days left of school. Im so looking forward to the summer. I cant wait to chill with my kiddos and enjoy some fun times with them. Not sure what we are going to do but I am working on the plans. :) Will be updating more later...

The vedict in in...

Chloe has EE...eosinophilic esophagitis :( She actually has it...I cant believe it. One of my babies has a disease that has the potential to cause serious problems in her life.

I am trying to take it all in. Im trying to not get all worked up. We will take it one day at a time. We still dont know what is going to happen, where this disease will lead us but I have faith that things will be okay and we can make it trhough this. I feel bad for my baby girl. I hate that she will have to deal with this. Im glad we know know what she has so we can start helping her.

All 3 of my kids are having issues right now. Chloe is dealing with EE, asthma and possibly allergies
Ryan is dealing with allergies...his eyes are red and he has a headache today. Alyssa is dealing with her yearly sesonal eczema....ugh!!!!! Its going to be a hard season. All I can do is pray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday Fun Day!!!

So after all the drama going on with Chloe and with the relief of the test finally being over, I decided we needed a family fun day. JR and my mom had to go to San Diego so I decided to take the kiddos to the duck pond and the beach. Chloe started talking about feeding ducks a few weeks ago and thanks to a friend, we finally found the prefect place. The kids all had a fun time...even Ryan :) After the duck pond we went to the beach....oh how I have missed the beach!!! It was amazing. I love the beach for so many reasons. I dont like playing in  the salty nasty water but it is sooooooooooooo pretty!!!!!!!!!!!! Of course the kids loved it. It was Chloes first time and Alyssa was only around 2 when we last went so Im not sure she remembered it. We didnt stay too long but it was alot of fun. We will be going back next week since the kiddos are on spring break for 2 weeks!!!!

Chloes Scope

Well the day has come and gone. Everything went pretty well. I was a nervous wreck but we did it! I have never been so scared in my life. So glad its over. The scope showed esophagitis in her upper esophagus and mild edema and furrowing. We wont know exactly whats going on until the biopsies come back. The Dr is going on vacation after Monday so hopefully the results come in before he goes!!! I am soooo curious to know what we are looking at. We took her off milk and so far she is doing well. I thought she would be crying for it but she hasnt. She knows milk makes her sick so maybe thats whny. Last night she woke up at 3:30 coughing and crying. She was swallowing and I could hear stuff coming up. I dont know if she wanted to vomit or if it was reflux....??? We will see how she does it tonight....hopefully better. I feel so bad that she has to go through all this crap.

report cards and stuff

So proud of Ryan and Alyssa. They both did really well on their report cards :)) Ryan was having a hard time with keeping his grades up and at christmas time I found out just how bad they were. He was getting one F and a couple D's. I was horrified. I always tell my kids to do their best and I will be happy. I dont push them too hard because I dont feel like I should. They have enough pressure. I stress to them that grades are VERY important and should be number 1. D's and F's are NOT acceptable at all!!!! I do expect them to do their very best and they are both very smart so I expect them to get A's and B's and maybe the occasional C. Ryan ended up with 4 C's 1 A and 1 B. I am a proud mama. Was it his absolute best? NO, I dont think so but it was the best he could do with the time he had to bring his grades up. So I am very proud of him for sure :))

Alyssa also got her report card and it was flawless She got all O's. She loves school and has also recieve 100% on all her spelling tests. Shes a smart cookie and I am really proud of her. I hope she keeps it up!!!

CHLOE ♥ again :)

The last few days have not been so great for my baby Shes had a rough couple of nights with the night before last being the worst. She woke up crying in pain. Her cry was soooo sad it made me cry. She was gagging and coughing and I was sure she would throw up. Luckily she didnt. It was a bad night. I felt so sad for her. Yesterday we went to lunch and I ordered her some ch milk. I didnt think she would have a problem. She hasnt had any throwing up spells in awhile except a couple minor ones and really 99 % of her vomitting is done at night. So she is drinking her milk and all of the sudden, she pukes LIKE ALOT. I am trying to clean her up and she pukes again....more this time. No coughing, no gagging, no clue it was about to happen. UGH not only am I embarrassed, I know what this means. After a few bad nights and her vomitting, I now know that I cant say she is doing good now so maybe we can wait on the scope. I know now for sure that we need to do the scope. We have to find out what is going on. This isnt normal. It breaks my heart to put her through that and I am soooo scared that something will go wrong but I have to have faith and believe GOD will watch over her.  As scared as I am, I know I am not helping her by being frozen in fear. I have to be strong and just get it done. I just love her soooooo much. She is my heart. :(

this song

makes me cry...


"Praise You In This Storm"

I was sure by now

God You would have reached down

And wiped our tears away

Stepped in and saved the day

But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining



As the thunder rolls

I barely hear Your whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

And as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away



And I'll praise You in this storm

And I will lift my hands

For You are who You are

No matter where I am

And every tear I've cried

You hold in Your hand

You never left my side

And though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm



I remember when

I stumbled in the wind

You heard my cry to you

And you raised me up again

My strength is almost gone

How can I carry on

If I can't find You



But as the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

And as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away



I lift my eyes unto the hills

Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord

The Maker of Heaven and Earth